A little more bad news...

Well, my cousin's cancer has come back. It has been less than a year. This time the tumor is pressing against her urethra tube (the exit route for urine) and has pushed the urethra closed so she had to have stints put in her kidneys...

She is 78. She and mom have been closer than sisters since mom was a tiny toddler. They moved from TN to Ohio within a year of each other and have just always been there for each other.

Well the docs said she can do chemo again and they just don't know what will happen, or she can do nothing. If she does nothing, she has 2 to 4 months to live.

Mom is really hurting over this. My cousin has been in the hospital 8 times in the last year and a half. She was in there 21 days and was put in the day before or the day after dad went in for the last time.

She is tired and it is unclear which way she wants to go.

I want her to do what is best for her. I worry a great deal about mom. Her neighbor, Gladys, just turned 90 today, also has cancer and not much longer to live. Mom's other real close friend is in a nursing home and will be for the rest of her life.

Mom needs a shot of young healthy friends to ease the way. I cannot get her to go to senior center events and such and she doesn't have a large driving radius, so she cannot really go too many social places without someone to drive her.

I am worried about her. I am worried about my cousin Betty. I don't really think she is truly ready to be done with her life, but she is clearly tired.

Her husband is the sweetest guy. I don't know if he will make it alone. He just isn't the type. She is his love, his sweetheart since childhood.

I just want to be a kid again. Young parents, young family friends. Healthy and just struggling with other issues, not serious illness and death around every corner... I am not liking this aging thing at the moment.

Live life like you are dying...

Review your top 3 priorities in life. Can you name the 3 most important things in the world to you?

OK, off to a somber bed time...